I’ve taken some new approaches to my marathon training which has meant:

  1. Keeping my (social media) mouth shut and just getting on with it
  2. Only saying something when I have something useful to say

And this is one of those instances…

It’s safe to say that my training hasn’t gone to plan whatsoever. I was keen on getting another PB in Paris so I figured I’d ease myself back into training last autumn, but I just couldn’t find my running mojo.

Once I reluctantly got back into the swing of things, I almost got hit by a car, which left me with an injured ankle and out of action for 6 weeks.

My perfectly planned 6 month training plan was reduced to a pathetic 12 week emergency schedule and with Paris Marathon now being less than 5 weeks away, I wanted to share a few things I’ve learnt the past months:

Change the things you can and don’t worry about the rest

Not being able to walk properly for almost a month forced me refocus my efforts back in December. Instead of panicking about about my ankle situation, I decided to change the things I could have an impact on, like:

  • Getting enough (quality) sleep
  • Hydrating as much as possible
  • Focusing on eating better
  • Cutting down on alcohol and other habits that left me feeling fatigued

I didn’t see or feel any changes straight away, but I kept at it in hopes that it would help and having done my best to improve these areas of my life in the last 3 months, I can honestly say that it has made a huge impact!

Learning the difference between “enough” and “lazy”

One thing that I’ve been really bad at in the past has been to stop when my body tells me its had enough. I would push through the pain, over do it when I should be resting and generally just doing anything in my power to stick to my training plan.

This time around I’ve made a conscious effort to try to listen to my body, to be flexible with my training and stop when I feel pain. I admit that I still struggle with this because sometimes I feel like I’m just being lazy. I’ve been feeling guilty about the fact that I started out doing 4 runs a week, that then went down to 3 and that now stand at around 2 a week. However, I have come to accept that the reason for this is not laziness, it’s because my body just isn’t recovering fast enough for me to be able to do more than those runs at the moment and that just has to be ok.

Be thankful for what your body can achieve

In the last four months I’ve gone from completing reluctant runs, to not being able to walk at all, to running 17 miles without any issues. I’m definitely not as fast as I used to be, my condition isn’t as good as it was when I did London marathon and I find it very difficult to stay motivated at times when I feel like I’m not making progress. But whenever I feel down about my current achievements I try to remember what an incredible thing it is to be able to lace up and run, whether that’s for 1, 3, 13 or 26 miles. I should be proud of how quickly I’ve bounced back from my injury instead of torturing myself for all the things I’m not able to do.

There’s no denying that this marathon training has been a real struggle for me, but I overall I’ve learnt some valuable lessons and I can only hope that once race day comes, I will be able to celebrate the journey that lead me to the finish line – even if it looks like it’s going to be a slow and painful one!

So we’ve survived the first month of 2017 and whilst it feels like the world is going slightly mad and backwards, I’ve been trying to stay low-key and focused. I really wanted January to be the month where I laid the foundations for this year and I have to say that so far I’ve been relatively successful.

One of the main things I was keen on doing was to fully make this flat feel like my home and create an environment that I love being in. I’m not fully there yet, but it’s coming together nicely and I love spending time at home.

Another thing that I was determined on doing was to get back into running. To be honest, I feel ashamed of how much I took using my legs/feet for granted… After my accident and injured ankle, every run is a celebration (or at least in theory!) In reality I’m super slow, sluggish and constantly paranoid that I will hurt myself again, but I’m trying to stay positive despite my wavering confidence and swollen ankle in the evenings.

The last, but maybe most important thing that I’ve done since the new year is to delete most social media apps from my phone. I noticed that constantly watching people broadcast their (curated) lives and comparing myself to to them was having a bad effect on me, so now I’m trying to limit the time I use social media.

I’m the first to admit that I’m not perfect and the whole thing is still work in progress – but I don’t really check social networks during working hours, I don’t have the majority of the apps on my phone anymore, and all phones are banned from the bedroom (I even bought an alarm clock, so no excuses!).

Then there’s some other bits and bobs too, but I won’t bore you with that now. Instead, here’s to a decent!

Good morning my friends!

I hope you all had a nice weekend. I had grand plans of sorting out a lot of stuff but things didn’t quite go as I wanted…

A lot of things are happing in my life right now and despite trying my best to keep my head above water, it felt like I was drowning on Saturday and I didn’t have the energy to fight back any more.

So what should have been a cheap and cheerful little gathering on Saturday night with some friends, food and a drinks, turned into a proper booze fest and I drank so many gin cocktails (at happy hour!) that the thought of gin & elderflower still makes me want to vomit 1½ day later.

Half of me feels that of course I’m allowed to go out, have some fun and blow off some steam – it is so rare for me to do it that once every 6 months or so shouldn’t be something I get hung up about.

But the other half of me feels annoyed, frustrated and guilty because there were a few things I really wanted to get done this weekend that just didn’t happen because I spent a full day feeling fucking horrendous.

Truth be told though, despite being at peace with some of the shitty things that are happening right now, this wave of complete anxiety and stress washes over me from time to time.

I can handle it 85% of the time, but then there’s the other 15% that chokes me and drinking is such an easy way to drown out the voices in my head – but it’s also a very stupid and unsustainable way of dealing with it.

So until I sort shit out and get back on my feet, I have decided that I’m not going to drink. It might take a week, a month, a few months – I have no idea.

But even though I’m not a big drinker in general, I know that it’s so easy to get into the habit of having a few drinks (wine or beer) after work or with dinner “to take the edge of a day” – especially when you’re going through a rough patch in your life like I am at the moment.

So I rather try to do it in other ways like going for a run or doing something creative (like writing a blog post). It might not work, but I’m going to give it a go.

Hopefully it will help me get back into this running routine as well that I’ve really been struggling with since I got back from Thailand.