tired as hell

Sometimes a picture says more than a thousand words and I think we can all agree that I look bloody run down at the moment…

Just realised it had been around 3 weeks since I last wrote anything here on the blog, sorry! Life has been a bit upside down since I got back from Thailand 6 weeks ago.

Anyway, the reason why I have been so quiet is that I ended up with loads of work before my last day at Jazzman, then I went back home to Sweden for a few day, got back to London and had some bits and bobs to sort out (like this article on VF website, attending a very interesting day hosted by Mixcloud at Convergence, having a massive spring clean in the house aaaaaaand starting a new job…)

So yes, this week I started my new job and I’m really enjoying it but it is a lot to take in all at once. Not just work wise but also the fact that I’m not home alone anymore but in an office with people (might not sound like a big deal but it is!).

The running hasn’t been going good but it’s been ok. Officially went back to RDC this week but due to being totally exhausted every single night of the week I didn’t find the time to go out for another shortish run after work.

After going through a bit of a shitty and stressful period I feel like I’m finally starting to see the end of the tunnel and I’ve decided not to be too harsh on myself with regards to the running.

I have had my set of routines for almost 3 years now, so I need to accept the fact that it will take some time to get used to getting up earlier, going to bed later, and trying to find time to exercise a bit later or earlier in the day. I’m confident that I can do it, but I just need some time to settle in my new job, new routines, and this fresh start I now have.

Very exciting times and I can’t wait to share more info about what I’ll be working with from now on!

As for the blog – more regular updates will be coming, but like with the running I just need to get my head around how to divide up my spare time.

It’s been a super long time coming, but a new episode of FEVER is finally available!

I had to take a few months off due to illness, travelling, seasonal holidays and some technological setbacks – but it feels great to be back doing regular shows again.

Having that said, I want to apologise in advance if the levels are a bit shit at times! I recorded this show with a new set-up at home with vinyl only and I’m still trying to get my head around how to use a Mac/Garage Band/my new soundcard & mixer plus talking into the mic with my speakers on without creating too much feedback…

Don’t worry, I will get there eventually, but it explains why it sounds like Im whispering in certain parts of the show haha.

Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to tune in, for all the support you’re giving me and for patiently waiting for this new show to become available.

I really hope you like it!

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Well hello there my friends,

You might be pleased to know that this crazy chest virus that I’ve been having for over 4 weeks is FINALLY on its way out. Was talking to an old friend to mine earlier today and realised that I’ve pretty much been ill 8 weeks out of the last 16 – which isn’t like me at all!

Anyway, I figured that due to the way the holiday days fell between Christmas and NYE, my new year would come into effect 5th January, and it kind of did.

Last week I started off with organising my life as much as I could (think planning, budgeting, making a start at creating new habits etc) but since I was still feeling weak and had a pretty bad cough, the plan was to get back into the whole fitness thing today… but it hasn’t really gone to plan.

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If I have learnt anything these last few years, it’s that you should let your body rest when it needs to rest, otherwise you’ll just end up taking forever to get better, or even worse, you get injured.

So taking my own advise, I have been a good girl and listened to my body and not done any exercise for over a month now because I didn’t want to start the year feeling like shit or with an injury (to be fair, only last week I was getting a bit dizzy and sweaty just from walking to the train station, so it was a good call…).

HOWEVER, fast forward a week and I am feeling much better! So much better in fact that I could have gone to the gym today (as planned!) and been fine.

But instead I snoozed all my alarms in the morning and gave up on going after work because I finished 1.5 hour later than usual and I just couldn’t face going to totally full gym with loads of newbies on my first time back since forever.

Of course now, 2 hours later, I’m regretting my lazy decision and I have made the grand plan of going tomorrow morning instead – but will I actually go or will I bail?

I can usually be pretty good at motivating myself, but it seems that since I lost my training buddy back in October and then went on having a rather irregular training schedule due to holidays or illness in November and December, I’ve somehow lost my training mojo.

I don’t feel like I have put on too much holiday weight over the last 4 weeks because my virus didn’t really allow me to indulge too much, but I do feel like I have become weaker and more sluggish – something I definitely want to change!

Plus, I have so many races and fitness goals this year – things that I am genuinely excited about!

So why is it then that despite being excited, Im somehow still feeling BLAH about it all?

Any of you felt the same way or have any tips on how to get “back on it” after such a long time off? Or is it as simple as “Just do it!”? (please don’t say that…!)