Considering February is Dilla Month I figured I would do a playlist with just Dilla (as an artist and as a producer). Almost hit the 3 hour mark so decided to leave out a lot of stuff he produced for others. Doesn’t mean its shit, just too much stuff to choose from!

Week 2 out of 18 have now been completed, and I have to admit that I am still struggling with getting back into the swing of things.

training week 2 - 1

Strength training last week absolutely KILLED my legs, which resulted in a rather painful training week. Don’t let my smile fool you, last week was though, not just on my body but on my mind as well.

training week 2 - 2

My confidence is really taking a hit with still being so unfit. I mean, LOOK AT ME! The sweat was literally dripping off my entire face as I struggled to complete 3 miles with heavy and painful legs.

training week 2 - 3

As a person who has endured physical pain on a daily basis for so many years, my pain threshold has become super high, which in turn has made me a bit worried about injuring myself whilst training as I am pretty good at “pushing through the pain” – it was a survival technique for so many year and I automatically apply it for running.

training week 2 - 4
Who knows, I might be worrying in vain, but I would hate to injure myself and go through all the stress I went to when I first trained to run a half marathon and injured myself due to over-training.

So Im trying to be good by walking and stretching during my runs when the pain gets too much. It’s annoying and it makes me question whether or not I actually need to take a break or if I am just being lazy…

ARGH! It is a very frustrating feeling when you have the will and mindset to do something but your body can’t handle it. Im constantly reminding myself that I still have a long journey ahead, so I should just relax a little, but it is much harder than it sounds!

Anyway, this is what my training week looks like:


MON: REST – Done
TUE: Strength training & 3 miles – Done
WED: 4 miles – Done
THU: Strength training & 3 miles – Done without strength
FRI: REST – Done
SAT: Cross training No cross training
SUN: 5 miles – Done, did 6 miles with Cata

Let’s see if I can manage to be less of a drama queen this week and just do the damn thing instead.

So I started marathon training last week and wow, let me tell you, it is HARD when you haven’t been active for around 5 months.

I always thought going from sofa to finish line was the most difficult thing, but having done it myself 2 years I have to say that I don’t agree.

training week 1 - 1

Please don’t get me wrong, as I am not saying that the journey from sofa to finish line is easy, because it wasn’t easy by any means! But in comparison to what I am going through at the moment, mentally that journey wasn’t as demoralising.

training week 1 - 2

What I mean by that is – I am a person who in the space of one and a half year ran six half marathons and six 10K races –  of which the majority was FOR FUN. And now I am finding myself in the situation where I really struggle to run beyond one mile.

training week 1 - 3

I’ve been in this position before, but that was in the very beginning when I had never run before, so every mile clocked was a massive achievement for me. Now I know that I have been able to run a half marathon without stopping and without great difficulty, so my confidence is taking a complete battering when I can’t even run a mile without feeling like my lungs will explode (don’t even get me started on the speed I have lost…)

training week 1 - 4

It makes me really sad and angry that I have allowed myself to get this out of shape again. But then I remember the reasons why it has happened, and I try not to be too hard on myself. It’s just very hard when every run so far has been a massive struggle and I can just feel how Im overweight and flabby…

Hopefully it will get a bit easier as the weeks go by, and in the mean time I will just have to work harder on silencing that voice of doubt in my mind.


MON: 3 miles – Done
TUE: Strength training – Done
WED: 3 miles – Done
THU: Strength training & 3 miles – Done
FRI: REST – Done
SAT: Cross training – No cross training
SUN: 7 miles – Done

Wish me good luck!