Trying to find my greatness
Hello my friends!
I know it’s been a while since I updated the blog, and to be honest with you, I haven’t been feeling my best for a few months.
Despite having some great times this summer, overall, these months since I completed the Berlin Half Marathon in April have been very draining.
I have worked more and harder than I’ve ever done in my life, and since my office moved out in nowhere in June, my day-to-day routines have been turned upside-down as a result of working at home (which I hate because it is really lonely and not very creative at all).
With two half marathons slowly approaching in October, I have been having mini panic attacks and nightmares about not being able to achieve better than what I did in my first race, mainly because I feel guilty for not haven’t trained as much as I wanted to, either due to lack of motivation, injury or simply lack of time.
This blog has always been a place where I have come to let off some steam and emptied out my thoughts, feelings, ideas and questions – but I have felt a bit reluctant to do so because some people seem to think that I share these things it to get attention, which I don’t.
Either way, for my birthday last week I was invited by Nike to go and get a tour of their showroom that they’ve set up especially for the Olympics, showcasing not only the different outfits and shoes the athletes are using at the games, but also to try out their new Nike+ Training shoe and to get a Fuelband (all which I will cover in a post later this weekend – so stay tuned!)
I’ve been dying to get my hands on a Fuelband for quite a while now and having missed the British 10K, the Nike+ FuelFest AND the Ernesto Neto x Run Dem Crew Flyknit workshop that Nike hosted, I never really thought I would get the chance to own one. So it was the biggest and most loveliest surprise to get asked to go and check out all the amazing things at the showcase, and of course, to get my very own Fuelband at last!
Quite a few people asked me how I, out of so many other people, ended up getting one and why. The most honest answer I could think of was:
I have no idea why and how.
I’m no super athlete, I’m kind of chubby again (due to lack of training!), I’m not a crazy fast runner, I’m definitely not a stylish model or some kind of cool cat – I am just me.
The more I thought about it, the clearer it became that all in all, there’s no real reason for me to “be picked”, apart from the fact that I am pretty much just like most people out there – the only slight difference might be this blog and the fact that I have shared all my ups and downs when it comes to running and music and work and uni and everything else here.
And maybe because by sharing my story and running Berlin half I managed to inspire over 25 people in at least 5 different countries to start running – of which approx. 10 will be joining me in Amsterdam to do the half marathon and for some of them it will be their first ever race.
25 people might not sound like a lot, but those are only people that I know of, and the fact that I have managed to inspire them to run is one of the most amazing and proudest feelings I’ve ever had!
So I guess that, and luck. Lots and lots of luck.
I’m still struggling with a lot of things in life at the moment, but a training plan has been put together for Amsterdam and I am doing my very best to stay focused and not let the negative things in life get to me.
Running has given me so much and I have come such a long way since I first started in January. And yes, there has been a few backlashes since April, but I am determined to keep on keeping on, clocking those miles, try to help and inspire others to do the same and not give up.
So let’s go and Do Da Ting people and try to inspire each other to be the best that we can be, not just today but every day. It’s not the easiest thing in the world, much more difficult than running, but I am pretty sure it’s achievable and one way of finding greatness.