It’s been around 16 days since we ran the marathon and after the incredible stress and anxiety that came with handing in my MA project, plus worrying about how I was going to cope running 26.2 miles, it felt good to have 6 days to unwind back home in Sweden, even if 3 of them were spent wobbling around with aching legs!

We were so lucky with the weather and spent most of our days outside, either wobbling around or catching up with friends and eating nice food.

It was my grandma’s birthday as well, so the day before we had to head back to London she came over for late lunch, cake and presents.

By the seaside in Malmö

By the seaside in Malmö

Views from the beach in Malmö

Views from the beach in Malmö

Selfie in mum's hallway

Selfie in mum’s hallway

Yummy hamburger at Surf Shack

Yummy hamburger at Surf Shack

Hot dog at Surf Shack

Hot dog at Surf Shack

Tasting kebab pizza with bearnaise sauce for the first time

Tasting kebab pizza with bearnaise sauce for the first time

Typical Swedish Friday night dinner at Anna's

Typical Swedish Friday night dinner at Anna’s

Swedish Pick'n'Mix

Swedish Pick’n’Mix

Granny & me on her birthday

Granny & me on her birthday

Grandma's Birthday Cake

Grandma’s Birthday Cake

Coming back to London was a bit of a buzz kill to be honest as it was so grey, cold and rainy!

As a result, the first working week back was rather depressing because the rain just wouldn’t stop and the flat was dark and gloomy.

So as a contrast to the boring week, I decided to take advantage of the fact that I didn’t have a training schedule to stick to at the weekend, which ended up in a rather spontaneous and lovely Saturday in London with lots of booze, laughs and good music.

The shard

The shard

My hottie

My hottie

An old fashioned and whiskey sour

An old fashioned and whiskey sour

The Sun Ra Arkestra at the Barbican

The Sun Ra Arkestra at the Barbican

Overall though Im starting to feel more and more restless.

The two big goals I had for this year I’ve accomplished and now Im a bit like
“…so what’s next?”.

I have many ideas, many things I would like to do and many goals I would like to achieve.

But just like I knew a year ago that I wouldn’t have been ready (mentally anyway) to run a marathon, I know now that some of the ideas and goals I have in mind are not really things I can do or achieve at the moment.

So it might be that I will take a small break in June to figure things out, do a bit of soul searching and do a bit of planning.

Some things that are definite though are that I want to do more with this blog, I want to start doing radio (or maybe podcasts?) again, and I definitely want to continue with this fitness “thing” that I have been doing for the last 2 years.

If there’s anything specific you would like to read or hear about here on the blog, or if you have any ideas of fun projects or challenges – gimme a shout!

 

 

Before I started running I always felt like I had so much on my plate, that I didn’t really have time for things like exercise or general “me time”.

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Looking back on it, I gave up a lot of things simply because I had the mindset of “I don’t have time”, which actually wasn’t true in hindsight, but I guess it was more convenient to say that rather than having to deal with certain things.

Since I started my training again in Jan 2014 – despite sometimes not really being up for the run ahead, Ive stuck to every single session in my schedule before getting injured. When I wasn’t up for it or felt like I didn’t have time, Ive told myself that its essential “me time”, and that it’s not something I can allow myself to compromise on.

I’ve also tried to incorporate a bit of “me time” outside of running, giving myself the time to do things like painting my nails, or putting on a face mask, or just having a slightly longer shower.

Might not sound like a big deal, but I never really used to allow myself that time to kind of treat or take care of myself.

And what I have realised is that taking those 1-2 hours to run, or 20-30 min to paint my nails, or to put on a face mask actually makes me happier and more productive than just constantly sitting inside, in front of my laptop, and neglecting myself.

At first I felt a bit guilty, and the last two months of my training schedule when I’ve had so much on with my MA project, I struggled with the mindset of allowing myself to have that time.

But overall, I think it has really helped me stay more focused and to be much happier than when I’ve been in similar busy situations or periods in the past.

The more I get used to doing it, the more important I think it is to allow yourself to have that time that you spend on yourself and your well-being, WITHOUT feeling guilty or stressed about it.

It doesn’t have to be in the form of running or painting your nails, it can be whatever you want!

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Seeing the improvements in my fitness has also opened up my eyes for how much healthier other aspects of my life have become, and as a result, things like being able to focus on work have become better because both my mind and my body are happier.

People said training for my first marathon and finishing my final MA project would be very difficult, and it really has been! But at the same time, I think running has kept me in check and forced me to be way more disciplined and healthy during the last stages of my MA than I’ve ever been before.

So ultimately, both have been experiences that I’ve really enjoyed, and that probably wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t allow myself the time to enjoy them both.

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I baked a big batch of cinnamon and apple buns in preparation for Mother’s Day

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The new colourful cushions and the pineapple print really adds a splash of happiness to our living room, I love it!

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Bought some nice tulips for Mother’s Day to go with the colour scheme of the room, they are definitely in my top 3 favourite flowers!

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And of course no big celebration can happen without some traditional Swedish princess cake – it was a Mother’s Day hit!

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I somehow managed to get my in-laws to put up our new mirror during their visit. Felt very cheeky but they did an amazing job and we are so happy with the result. It has really made the entire room feel lighter and more spacious!

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The extra daylight and the flowers and all the small pops of colour has really made it feel like spring has sprung in our livingroom – which makes working from home a bit less depressing if I’m honest…!

Despite the stress and pressure that comes from marathon training and MA project, I have to say that overall, I haven’t been this happy with life for a very long time (and that even includes the mini breakdown I had the other week!). Feeling extremely grateful at the moment!