Week 3 of marathon training has been completed and FINALLY the first week that I feel relatively good about – despite almost getting the norovirus, still being in pain, still struggling a lot and still running relatively slow.

training week 3 - 1

The week kicked off with a pretty shit run. I decided to “just do it” and the first mile went great, until my left leg started hurting again (calf and shin) and I was forced to literally wobble the last mile.

training week 3 - 2

Quite demoralised and frustrated by the situation, I decided to go for a run with Cata the next day, and thanks to her commitment, great attitude and consistent pace I managed to run my first 3 miles since August 2013 without stopping! It hurt, and despite going rather slowly, I felt like giving up after 1½ mile. But her presence really gave me a boost and whenever I wanted to quit I told myself to just suck it up and run, and it worked!

training week 3 - 3

My third run of the week went a bit better, mainly because the previous day had given me a bit of a confidence boost. It was the first 5K run since the Malmö Half Marathon that I managed to run below a 10min/mile on average WITHOUT STOPPING and despite my left leg hurting, I felt super happy with my efforts.

training week 3 - 4

For my Sunday long run I joined Cata again as I wasn’t confident enough in myself to run my 5 miles without giving up or stopping. She had 6 miles planned, so I figured I would give it a go and if I couldn’t do it I would just stop at 5.

It was a sunny day and by mile 2 I was so warm my contact lens almost fell out of my eye. I wanted to give up every other minute – my left calf and shin was hurting, I felt like I was gonna have a serious case of “runners stomach”, the salt was stinging my face… But seeing Cata powering through helped motivate me and I kept thinking “mind over miles, mind over miles”.

I almost stopped at 5 miles, but figured that what the hell, 1 more mile surely wont kill me, Ive done it so many times before! So I continued running, counting every second until I could stop – and when I finally did stop I felt so happy and proud! 6 miles without stopping!

Made me think of how I always perform better when it’s not just me that is depending on it. Like, I didn’t want to stop because it would mess with Cata’s run and I didn’t want to do that. Just like I didn’t want to let my group down when I did Team Bangs On The Run – it helped push me and motivate me.

So this is what I need to concur this week:

MARATHON TRAINING WEEK 4

MON: REST – Done
TUE: Strength training & 3 miles – Done, did 4.3 miles 
WED: 4 miles – Done, did 3 miles
THU: Strength training & 3 miles – Done without strength training
FRI: REST – Done
SAT: Cross training – Went swimming
SUN: 9 miles – Done

Week 2 out of 18 have now been completed, and I have to admit that I am still struggling with getting back into the swing of things.

training week 2 - 1

Strength training last week absolutely KILLED my legs, which resulted in a rather painful training week. Don’t let my smile fool you, last week was though, not just on my body but on my mind as well.

training week 2 - 2

My confidence is really taking a hit with still being so unfit. I mean, LOOK AT ME! The sweat was literally dripping off my entire face as I struggled to complete 3 miles with heavy and painful legs.

training week 2 - 3

As a person who has endured physical pain on a daily basis for so many years, my pain threshold has become super high, which in turn has made me a bit worried about injuring myself whilst training as I am pretty good at “pushing through the pain” – it was a survival technique for so many year and I automatically apply it for running.

training week 2 - 4
Who knows, I might be worrying in vain, but I would hate to injure myself and go through all the stress I went to when I first trained to run a half marathon and injured myself due to over-training.

So Im trying to be good by walking and stretching during my runs when the pain gets too much. It’s annoying and it makes me question whether or not I actually need to take a break or if I am just being lazy…

ARGH! It is a very frustrating feeling when you have the will and mindset to do something but your body can’t handle it. Im constantly reminding myself that I still have a long journey ahead, so I should just relax a little, but it is much harder than it sounds!

Anyway, this is what my training week looks like:

MARATHON TRAINING WEEK 3

MON: REST – Done
TUE: Strength training & 3 miles – Done
WED: 4 miles – Done
THU: Strength training & 3 miles – Done without strength
FRI: REST – Done
SAT: Cross training No cross training
SUN: 5 miles – Done, did 6 miles with Cata

Let’s see if I can manage to be less of a drama queen this week and just do the damn thing instead.

So I started marathon training last week and wow, let me tell you, it is HARD when you haven’t been active for around 5 months.

I always thought going from sofa to finish line was the most difficult thing, but having done it myself 2 years I have to say that I don’t agree.

training week 1 - 1

Please don’t get me wrong, as I am not saying that the journey from sofa to finish line is easy, because it wasn’t easy by any means! But in comparison to what I am going through at the moment, mentally that journey wasn’t as demoralising.

training week 1 - 2

What I mean by that is – I am a person who in the space of one and a half year ran six half marathons and six 10K races –  of which the majority was FOR FUN. And now I am finding myself in the situation where I really struggle to run beyond one mile.

training week 1 - 3

I’ve been in this position before, but that was in the very beginning when I had never run before, so every mile clocked was a massive achievement for me. Now I know that I have been able to run a half marathon without stopping and without great difficulty, so my confidence is taking a complete battering when I can’t even run a mile without feeling like my lungs will explode (don’t even get me started on the speed I have lost…)

training week 1 - 4

It makes me really sad and angry that I have allowed myself to get this out of shape again. But then I remember the reasons why it has happened, and I try not to be too hard on myself. It’s just very hard when every run so far has been a massive struggle and I can just feel how Im overweight and flabby…

Hopefully it will get a bit easier as the weeks go by, and in the mean time I will just have to work harder on silencing that voice of doubt in my mind.

MARATHON TRAINING WEEK 2

MON: 3 miles – Done
TUE: Strength training – Done
WED: 3 miles – Done
THU: Strength training & 3 miles – Done
FRI: REST – Done
SAT: Cross training – No cross training
SUN: 7 miles – Done

Wish me good luck!