Last week I announced on the blog that I’m trying to get back into running after a 9 month break of only strength training.

Well, let’s just say that I pretty much failed with sticking to my plan all week last week.

I skipped my stretch and strength training on the Monday and went for a super short run on the Tuesday (but still the furthest I’ve run for a very long time…).

Not going to lie, the run was pretty shit as I still seem to have the remains of a nasty chest cold lurking inside of me (this has been an ongoing thing since DECEMBER 2014!) so I had difficulties breathing and then the snot went into my throat causing me to almost vomit – just not a very pretty sight overall.

This shit run didn’t really boost my moral and I once again skipped my strength training on the Wednesday.

Then Thursday showed up with such horrendous weather that I decided it would be stupid of me to go running in the pouring rain when the chest stuff was still dragging me down.

So I went for a 3 mile run on the Friday instead and it was a struggle. Very heavy legs, heavy breathing and I just couldn’t get into it at all.

Then the weekend came and as you know, it didn’t really go as I had planned.
I have to be honest, looking at the picture above reminds me of being at uni and I am amazed how some people can eat that garbage on the regular.

Not one of my proudest moments, especially if you think about the fact that Im actually allergic to all of it!

So with the huge disappointment that was last week I decided it just start over, new week – fresh start and mindset.

Yes I totally fucked up last week and yes I was incredibly disappointed with myself, but it happens, I’m not perfect.

I can’t let one shit week or shit period in my life ruin my focus and put me off my overall goal.

Yes it’s frustrating that things are not going the way I want them to and it is demoralising to be struggling with things I once used to be good at, but that is no excuse to stick my head in the sand or deliberately sabotaging my own progress.

So here’s to a fresh start! It might not be a perfect one, but at least I’m trying.

Good morning my friends!

I hope you all had a nice weekend. I had grand plans of sorting out a lot of stuff but things didn’t quite go as I wanted…

A lot of things are happing in my life right now and despite trying my best to keep my head above water, it felt like I was drowning on Saturday and I didn’t have the energy to fight back any more.

So what should have been a cheap and cheerful little gathering on Saturday night with some friends, food and a drinks, turned into a proper booze fest and I drank so many gin cocktails (at happy hour!) that the thought of gin & elderflower still makes me want to vomit 1½ day later.

Half of me feels that of course I’m allowed to go out, have some fun and blow off some steam – it is so rare for me to do it that once every 6 months or so shouldn’t be something I get hung up about.

But the other half of me feels annoyed, frustrated and guilty because there were a few things I really wanted to get done this weekend that just didn’t happen because I spent a full day feeling fucking horrendous.

Truth be told though, despite being at peace with some of the shitty things that are happening right now, this wave of complete anxiety and stress washes over me from time to time.

I can handle it 85% of the time, but then there’s the other 15% that chokes me and drinking is such an easy way to drown out the voices in my head – but it’s also a very stupid and unsustainable way of dealing with it.

So until I sort shit out and get back on my feet, I have decided that I’m not going to drink. It might take a week, a month, a few months – I have no idea.

But even though I’m not a big drinker in general, I know that it’s so easy to get into the habit of having a few drinks (wine or beer) after work or with dinner “to take the edge of a day” – especially when you’re going through a rough patch in your life like I am at the moment.

So I rather try to do it in other ways like going for a run or doing something creative (like writing a blog post). It might not work, but I’m going to give it a go.

Hopefully it will help me get back into this running routine as well that I’ve really been struggling with since I got back from Thailand.

After our mini adventure at the shrimp farm we headed to the docks to catch a speed boat the the small tropical island Koh Mak that was going to be our home for 5 days.

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I never really imagined Thailand being very hilly and mountainy – mainly because up until recently I never really imagined myself going to that part of the world, so the amazing scenery was definitely a big bonus.

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We had some “meat on a stick” and sticky rice whilst we waited for the boat (Im doing a whole post just dedicated to food by the way – but wow! I definitely haven’t been anywhere in the world where normal street food has tasted this good!)

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Then after some hustling we got on the boat and were off! It took us about 45 minutes to get to this island that is basically out in the gulf of Thailand just outside Cambodia.

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Arriving at this place almost felt like arriving to your own private tropical island because it’s not been taken over by many tourists quite yet (although there must have been more Swedes than Thai people there…!)

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I shared a room with Dave and Ina in this bungalow that was divided up in two – with Cata and her Dave living in the room above us. The view from our bed was absolutely stunning although some of the features to the bungalow where a bit questionable ;)

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We quickly discovered that the hotel bar had happy hour between 5-7pm which from then on became the only set routine that we followed. Of course we couldn’t refuse having a dip in the ocean! The water was almost as warm as a bath at home and so clear you could see every little detail. We had a few cocktails and watched the sun set around 7 pm.

Next day we rented some scooters and had a long ride around the island.

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First we headed up to the island temple and met loads of cute little puppies (and some monks too!)

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We saw this little restaurant down by the shore and ended up having lunch there with the whole crew. Lovely little seafood place with super yummy crushed fruit drinks!

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After lunch we went on exploring other parts of the island that were a bit further away.

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We ended up at another resort that looked a bit more worn down and basic than ours. We had a look around and decided to head off to the complete opposite of the island, and so we kind of drove back and forth and around for a few hours exploring various places and beaches.

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After exploring for more than half of the day we decided it was time to head back home, butwe made a quick stop at the local gas station to fill up the bikes ;)

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We set home and once back at the resort we took another dip in the ocean and then watched the sun set again whilst sipping on some happy hour cocktails.

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Wednesday was all about just relaxing. We had booked in a two hour thai massage in the afternoon, and before the message we had a relaxing time on the beach not doing much at all apart from sunbathing, reading books and taking dips in the sea.

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The Thai massage was probably one of the best things I spent my money on the whole vacation – it felt like foam rolling my entire body! in fact it was so good I booked another session in for the next day (but only for an hour). After the massage I went and had a beer on my own and you guessed it! Watched the sun go down…

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Then I went back to the room to freshen up and met up with the rest of the crew for drinks and food.

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The following the day was the last full day we had on Koh Mak and we spent it snorkling and boating around the different islands.

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Not gonna lie, snorkling isn’t really thing – im just not that interested in looking at fish and plants under the water. I mean, its cool for like 10 minutes but then I just get bored.

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But having said that, the water was SO CLEAR and so warm considering how deep it was, that I really enjoyed the overall experience of boating around, swimming a bit, seeing cool fish for a bit and just having some fun with my friends.

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We stopped at a nature reservoir for lunch – and I think my only complain would be too little food and booze on this day out ;)

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Overall though it just looked magical and we even got to see loads of fish coming up to the boat as we fed them a bit of leftover rice.

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All in all a lovely day that was made even better by the one hour massage I got once we got back to the resort.

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I said goodbye to the amazing sunset one last time, and before we all went to bed full of food and tired from all the swimming, we had one last cocktail as the bartender agreed to have happy hour all evening for us because we had been such great guests.

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No last day would be complete without a bit of action and of course our piece of action came as we had left the island. After speeding away for maybe 10 mintes towards the mainland we realised that Cata’s mum had forgotten her bag with all her money, camera, phone and other valuables on the beach!

Luckily because she had been so nice and tipped more or less the entire staff before we set off that morning, they found her bag and sent a boat to meet us in the middle of the sea to deliver it to her.

It felt very James Bond-esque and was a perfect ending to our 5 day island mini adventure.