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I’m sorry for not being very active as of late. Too much going on and I just can’t seem to find the amount of hours every day to do all the things that need to be doing. At least not on my own and with the amount of work I have. I’m back to square one where I wake up crying, go to bed crying, and spend my days trying not to lose it. So my apologies, but I am unable to find the inner strength to pull myself up and out of this one…
Hello my friends!
I just found out that my friend DJ Azer, a very talented and lovely young man from Belgium who I had the pleasure to meet when I was in Brussels for the first time, has a little video podcast going on. He basically invites a couple of friends over and record/film while they spin records together. It made me smile and the music is pretty dope too. Check out the video below and have a look at his other live sessions here.
Oh and dont forget to check out this awesome mix he made for the Release party earlier this month.It will rock your socks off! Enjoy and much love! x
So, if you are in London this Friday, I hope you know that this is where you should be at. The Brownswood fam is putting on yet another great night at East Village and it is def worth checking out! I mean, you can’t go wrong with peeps like Seiji, Mamiko Motto, my girl Ahu and my boys, Lefto & the bPm! So be there, or be square.
Good morning my friends!
How was the weekend? I hope it was good! I personally had one of the best weekends for a very long time. And yeah, I know I said it last time I came back from Brussels, but this time it was a bit different. In a good way though!
I got the chance to join Deejay Kwak live in the radio studio for his show, Back to Niceness on FM Brussel. It was a great experience and it made me feel very tempted to do a live radio show.
We were joined by Yarah Bravo, who also was the headline act at the Anattitude party in the evening. Turns out she is from Lund in Sweden (the neighboring city to Malmö, where I am from) What a small world ey?
The party was great, and I can’t remember the last time I enjoyed a strictly hiphop party so much. The girls did a fantastic job putting it together, and I am now really tempted to contact some of the “music girls” here in London/UK to maybe do something similar. I was happy to see that so many of the people I got to meet last time I was in Brussels was there at the party. It made my evening to see them all, so thank you once again for being so loving and friendly!
As always, Lefto was filming throughout the day, so have a look at the video and let me know if you can spot me:
So yeah, THANK YOU FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND AND BIG UP ANATTITUDE & THE SUPAFLY GIRLS FOR PUTTING ON A FANTASTIC EVENING! Oh, and of course, a massive thank you to Julius from Laid Back who let me crash at his place and for being a lovely host. Much Love! xxx
So I’m sitting on the bus hating on pretty much everything, especially the weather when this comment drops in to my previous post:
“Hey man, I think it’s best not to try and compare yourself to others (easier said than done!). I’ve been in that position where you look up to some people and then look down on others, it’s not a productive mindset. We’ve all been indoctrinated to compete with other people, it starts in school where we’re taught to compete with our class mates. That stuff is all bullshit. Life isn’t a competition, never has been, never will be. Anyways, take it easy
Saes”
First of all, Saes, thanks for dropping by, as always, I really appreciate it. Second of all, you’re right. I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others, but I can’t help it. At times it motivates me to strive to become better. Some other times, like yesterday, it makes me want to give up on it all.
But today is a new day, and your comment cheered me up. So thank you, I think I needed that.
Much love,
Orsi xxx
So I’m having a rather shitty end to this very long day. Don’t quite understand what’s going on, but I just bursted out in tears.
I’ve started to feel like I have 2 people living inside of my head lately. Or no, that’s not quite true, I have a lot of demons in my head, but I feel like some of those have started to have a very active role in my life.
I’m sure you’re probably sick & tired of reading about all this nonsense but I have to get it out of me…
I have days when I’m so happy and content with my life. However, I have noticed how the more insecure and unhappy orsi keeps popping up more and more lately, and she is once again putting all these weird thoughts in my head.
For example, I recorded my 5th official radio show this week. It is packed with lots of sunny vibes and I was really happy with how it turned out. Then earlier tonight I read something somewhere on the internet (can’t remember where this very second) and it literally felt like my whole world just crumbled into pieces. (yes I know that sounds overly dramatic, but it’s true)
I mean, I love doing these shows so much, and the fact that people say they like them makes me happier than any words can describe. But let’s be honest for a minute, I have fuck all to offer compared to the rest of the people who are doing their shows. It’s not like I’m some kind of music specialst, I know a couple of things, but compared to the rest I’m just an average joe who happens to have a few good tunes to play every now and again. I don’t really play any new or exciting music, and when I speak it’s usually just a load of crap I say in the heat of the moment. Don’t get me wrong, it truly means the world to me that some of you like it, but I just don’t understand why.
When I look around the web, and see all these great people doing their thing, whether it’s music or photography or writing or something else creative, and I compare my “work” to theirs, I feel like an utter and complete loser. And maybe that’s my problem, maybe I shouldn’t compare myself to others. Then again, I don’t want to be wasting your time with my bullshit.
Perhaps I’m just having a bad evening… But that doesn’t change the fact that no matter how grateful and happy I am to be doing what i’m doing, and no matter how hard I work and bust my ass off, I always feel like I’m letting you down…
I’m nobody special, and what I do is certainly not as high quality as so much other stuff out there. The fact that you put up with me and support me, regardless of these things, well, that’s just remarkable. I feel blessed to have you all in my life and I have so much love for you. I just wish I was better and had more to offer you…
Ok I’ll shut up now. Sorry.
I have had the pleasure to get to know the wonderful Kmeron through twitter. He is a very talented photographer, and I absolutely love the pictures he takes. The images above are a few of Infinitskills, and one of me, but they belong to a set of pictures he took at Release when I was in Brussels (yes we met, he is just as lovely in real life). To see all of his pictures, visit his Flickr page they are brilliant! I could (and have) spend hours and hours looking at them… Enjoy! x
So after the amazing Release party, I guess it was only a matter of time before I returned back to Brussels. This time it is with great pleasure I am attending the release party of the fourth issue of Anattitude Magazine. Founded in 2005, it is the first and only existing international Hip Hop magazine on print, to present the female side of Hip Hop culture. And we all know how I go on and on about how there’s too few females in the game raising their voices, making themselves heard, and showing off their skills. The magazine is great, and I am so happy that my path crossed with the founder, Jee-Nice, who I got to meet when I was in Brussels.
The event will take place this Saturday, 17 October. Kick off 20:00 at Le Tavernier, 445 Chaussée de Boondael, 1050 Brussels.
DJs:
MIKI (Gent)
LYRIK for A CAT CALLED FRITZ (Paris)
FATOOSAN (Brussels)
LEFTO (Brussels)
Live performances:
BEATDRUNX (Gent)
Special Guest:
YARAH BRAVO!!! (London)
Expo:
LIZAIRO (photography)
KOOL KOOR (graffiti)
B-girl performance by YIPHUN and B-GIRL STORMY
Make sure you check out the website, get the magazine, read the great post over at Laid Back and come to the party to show your support! As a little treat to get you in the mood, here is a dope mix that will knock your socks off:
Morning my lovelies!
It’s so cold this morning that I can see my own breath, brrrr! I hope you’ve had a nice weekend, mine was rather nice. Perfect mix of work & relaxing if I am honest.
I felt like stomping my feet and make a little fuss about a great website called Groovement this Monday morning. Not only because it’s a dope music website in general, but it has interesting interviews, great mixes and a sweet radio show that I can definitely recommend you to check out! Personal favourites are the ones from Kid Kanevil, Northern Comfort, and a stupidly good live set from Paul White that makes me smile no matter what mood im in.
Plus, the fact that Agent J sometimes drop a little unexpected note about me on the blog from time to time does make my heart grow fonder.
But yeah, if you wanna start your week with a big smile, check the Groovement website! So enjoy, and I shall be back a bit later. Much love! x
