Hello my friends!

Hows it going? I hope you have had a nice weekend. Thank you so much to all of you who commented on the boyfriend post, who sent me emails, texts, tweets, who have come up to me and said they felt the same way. I know I have said it many times before, but I can’t stress enough how much it really means to me.

I know there has been a lot of negativity from me lately, and I have been feeling a bit bad about it, so lets just make a couple of things clear.

Not a day goes by without me being thankful for being able to do what I do. Yes I have been complaining a lot, but you have to understand that it is extremely difficult from time to time, and I need to vent my feelings and my thoughts in order to keep some kind of balance of sanity in my head.

When it comes to the boyfriend thing, I am not the person who usually big myself up, mainly because that’s not really my style, but let’s have a small ego trip for a couple of minutes and clear the air.

I am not perfect, but I can be more or less fucking amazing, sometimes by choice and sometimes by just being me. It takes a lot for me to be able to say that, but I guess most people who have met me would agree that I am genuine in everything I do and say. I am kind and I am trustworthy, I am very loyal and I care about the people in my life. I speak my mind and I am honest, and what brings me the most joy in life is when I can make the people I care about happy or when I can help them out.

Of course I have a lot of bad qualities too… I can be very lazy and messy, sometimes I am too honest and end up hurting people with what I say. I have a very hard time gaining back my trust in people who have let me down and I can be very mean and hurtful to people who have hurt me or treated me bad.

Why am I telling you this? Because I feel like you need to understand that I am happy with myself, and I am (in a way) fully ok with being single. I don’t want a boyfriend because I think he would be the missing part in my life that would then make me feel complete, because I am complete. And even though I am not perfect, I do work very hard on trying to be the very best I can be every day. Wanting a boyfriend is a purely egoistic thing, and Im not even going to deny it.

But I have to admit, you did raise a lot of good things in what you said, and I have decided that I am going to do my best to just be happy in the situation I am in now and to enjoy it, and let the rest happen when it happens I guess.

As for the subject on being thankful, some of you might have heard that I am currently starting up my own division of Laid Back here in the UK. There has been many questions and I will reveal everything in due time, but there is one key element in this decision that links to the “being genuine” and “being thankful” part of this post, and I want to mention it as it is very important for me.

I realise how lucky I have been to be able to have worked with Brownswood, and then later on being able to be part of Laid Back. Im not going to deny that I have worked my little ass off, but I have had the privilege to meet so many amazing people along my journey, people that I look up to and admire. And I just wanted to say it loud and clear that me proposing and agreeing to start up Laid Back UK has as much to do with you guys as it has to do with myself. I am not famous, my network of contacts is somewhat limited, I have no real money to spend on anything big. But what I do have is dedication, this urge and passion in my soul and heart to somehow help the people I know to succeed and to support them in any way that I can.

All that is so genuine and honest that saying it wasnt true would be like denying who I am and what I stand for. Yes I work hard, and of course I am doing it because I want to progress and I want to succeed with my dreams and goals and visions, but it has never been a one man game for me, and I hope most people who have met me can tell that. I want to help my friends and the people I look up to and admire in this industry to succeed. I am very aware of my limitations, but it is important to me that they know that they have my support in any way I can give it.

Why? Because at the end of the day, they are my inspiration, they are the reason why I wanted to work with music in the first place. And I am not just talking about artists, but I am talking about all you passionate people out there who are involved with music in one way or another (Im not going to name drop you all in fear of that I might forget somebody, but you know who you are!).

I would not be here if it wasn’t for you, and I wouldn’t be working my ass off if it wasn’t for you. I feel like success is something that should be shared and enjoyed with other people, and if I can be a tiny part of helping any of you succeed in what you set out to achieve, I will be very happy and honoured.

Right! Enough with this all. Go back to your Sunday lunch and enjoy this final day before a new week begins. Much love to all of you xxx

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