Hello friends,
I hope you had a nice weekend. I just got a reminder from wordpress that apparently I need to upgrade something, but unfortunately I can’t remember what this upgrade is for, so if the blog dies tomorrow, I do apologise.
Still don’t feel much better after a rather shitty week. Went to a birthday dinner yesterday which was ok, but I wasn’t up for it 100% and I had difficulties keeping my happy face on. Nic was kind enough to let me go over to his afterwards and let me stay the night. Really wasn’t up for coming home and being alone with myself and my thoughts, and it felt good not crying myself to sleep for the first time this week.
If I am honest, I don’t know if it’s just the general January blues or if I am actually this upset and sad and disappointed and angry about everything. I keep waiting for it to pass and for me to feel better and happier about my situation and about things, but it just doesnt seem to get any better, only worse. So yeah, I know, it might not be the most interesting thing in the world for you to read about, but to be honest, I dont really feel like there is much else for me to share or say.
I feel overly unhappy about most things that used to bring me joy, and I am starting to doubt the fact that I can go back feeling the way I used to do. Maybe I just need time, or maybe I just need to give it up and move on. Whatever the choice or option might be, I feel like I need to make up my mind soon. Because living the way I do at the moment is like a personal hell, and I keep breaking down every day crying my eyes out over how stupid and naive I have been about things.
So yeah, if the blog dies tomorrow, it might be a sign to leave it all behind. No more Orsii anywhere. But we shall see…
January 24th, 2010 at 6:39 pm
No!
Come out for tea and cake with me…I can help maybe? xxx
January 24th, 2010 at 6:43 pm
A lot of people I was speaking to last night were depressed. I’m fairly sure Seasonal Affected Disorder is not a disorder (as in an affliction for some), but instead something everybody has to deal with on some level or another.
I’m not sure exactly what you’re down about – but I can totally sympathise with not enjoying things you usually do… Don’t worry, the sun will return soon :)
January 24th, 2010 at 6:57 pm
Sorry to hear you are feeling so sad! Dont give up… happiness is just around the corner!
And beside that… (purely selfishly) who will give me recipes for super coffee to help me through my hungover days in work and re-introduce me to moomins!! They still make me laugh!!
January 24th, 2010 at 8:04 pm
You never did send me an email. But, with regards to the WordPress stuff, just let me know what it’s saying and I’ll help.
Gav
January 25th, 2010 at 8:28 am
Orsi, forlat om detta later helt fel men jag ar sa glad att du skrev detta inlagget. Hela forra veckan har jag skrikit pa Toby och varit generellt arg och ledsen och varken han eller jag har vetat varfor… sen har jag dessutom brutit ner i tarar varanna dag sen jag kom tillbaka fran Malmo… vet inte riktigt varfor heller, men lat oss hoppas att det ar Januari depp och inget mer. Om du vill ses nan dag sa sag till bara :) Jag alskar dig.
January 29th, 2010 at 10:43 pm
Thanks Orsii for the post on dailyvitamins!
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