So going to bed early to get a fresh start tomorrow kind of failed when I got locked into the fantastic Black Classical show on Space Invader Radio. It’s simply too addictive! Cuddled up in bed with my headphones on, enjoying the sweet sweet sounds that truly are captivating. Trying to be quiet and not blast it out too loud so I dont disturb the others…It is actually fitting my current mood of yet another re-evaluation of my life and myself quite well. Or maybe not a re-evaluation, Im just feeling a bit restless to be honest. Feels like I’ve lost my inspiration for most things. Been trying hard to find it the last couple of weeks, but I just cant. Dont know whats wrong with me… Nothing gives me “that feeling” you know? I cant really describe it, its like Ive lost something, and Im trying to find it, my only problem is that Im not really sure what Ive lost.
Hm, there is actually a lot of stuff I could write about, because a lot has been happening the past 2 months. But maybe that’s just it? Maybe I am just trying to find myself again in this new place that I am in in life, spiritually, mentally, creatively, physically? Maybe Im not so much re-evaluating things, but growing and evolving and simply adjusting to my new sense of being and my new surroundings and new obstacles and new fears and new achievements, whilst letting go and getting over some of the ones from my past?
Dont know… this might not make sense to any of you, Im kind of thinking out loud here. But we all know this – I think too much and sometimes, too loudly.
November 15th, 2010 at 12:45 am
it makes perfect sense xxxxxx
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