Hello my friends!
The sun is shining after 4 days of heavy rain, and I can’t stop smiling. I had a very weird start to this week with mixed feelings after returning from Brussels (stay put, the post will come tomorrow) and I had this massive wave of sadness sweeping over me like a hurricane. I don’t really know what it was or why. Just too many things on my mind, and too much work to get through. There are so many things I want to do, and so many people I want to help, and I just felt a bit powerless and out of energy.
But as I was walking home on Tuesday evening, the rain was falling heavily, and I was thinking about just giving up on everything, I suddenly had a moment where I just felt like throwing away my umbrella and scream FUCK IT! It was one of those weird moments (I dont know if you have had one before) where I wished I could jump outside of my body, and give myself a proper slap across the face. The closer I got to my house, the more worked up I was getting. I mean, what the fuck!? We all have bad days where nothing seems to be going the way we want them to, when you just feel like telling everybody to go and fuck themselves and leave you alone, when we just want to give it all up and forget about everything. That’s just the way life is. And in those moments, we just have to learn how to pick ourselves up and carry on. And so I did. I thought about all the things in life I should be grateful for, the wonderful people I met this past weekend, all the great things I am involved in at the moment, and how much joy it usually brings me.
I thought about the fact that instead of complaining about all the work I need to be doing, I should be happy to be doing them in the first place. I would be complaining more if I had nothing to do and wasn’t involved with all these incredible projects, so why am I being such a spoiled little brat? I had a little chat with myself, and came to the conclusion that I was being an idiot, and that I needed to shape up, because I am doing something that I love and am passionate about. And just because I have one bad day, I shouldn’t let the negativity influence the way that I think and feel about the things I enjoy and love doing.
So today I am back to my normal happy little self and ready to take over the world once again!
I hope you are all good as well by the way! My new radio show will air at 9pm GMT and 10pm GMT +1 over at Laid Back. You can LISTEN HERE and make sure you keep an eye out for my complete Brussels report as well! Much Love. x
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