The worst thing about being lonely is being sick and lonely. Not having anybody to take care of you. To stroke your head. To make sure you’re tucked in properly. To make you a cup of tea and make sure you’re taking your flu medication. It was a weird day at work today. I felt like shit and almost started crying like 5 times. I even had to rush in to the toilets on one occasion because I could feel my eyes filling up with tears. Met Jason very briefly after work for a coffee. Was nice to see him. Was nice to get a hug… I miss hugs. I thought I would collapse on the bus home. Finally got in, off with all my clothes, into warm comfy ones, made a cup of tea, and now I am really tempted to just disappear under my duvet and not come out until the days are longer, the wind is warmer, and the trees are greener. It would be very nice to be able to disappear completely and pretend that I wasn’t here.

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