Orsii

9 years

orsi — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 19:42:47 +0000

I died today.

I know, it sounds ridiculous, but I did. I haven’t felt that feeling for many years, 9 to be exact…

Your heart starts rushing at an extreme speed and you get uncontrollably hot. You try to gasp for air but it feels like you have a massive stone on your chest, and the harder you try to breath, the less oxygen you seem to be getting and the dizzier you are feeling. Your eyes get filled with tears and you don’t know if this sudden need to cry comes from the panic you are feeling or the pain from your heart that feels like it is about to explode.

I felt like I was suddenly about to faint in the office but I somehow managed to keep my body in check, which is more than I managed to do last time I felt this way. As soon as I stepped out of the door, the tears just started running down my face. I ran around the corner and almost collapsed on the street. Tried to focus on breathing but my heart was pounding so hard in my chest and the tears were burning my cheeks so badly it felt like somebody was pouring acid down my face.

I sat there, on the ground, for maybe 20 minutes. My entire life flashed before my eyes. Every heartbreak, every heartache, every let down, every fear I had ever felt or experienced didn’t even come close to what I was feeling. And then it all went blank.

It felt like I was lifted out of my body, looking down on myself, and all I could feel was this massive emptiness coming over me.

What followed after was a pure automatic reaction. I got up, walked around the corner and got on the bus. I noticed that the tears were still running down my face but I couldn’t stop them. Like somehow my body was doing things but my mind was somewhere else, detached from everything.

I got off at my stop and started walking home. And then all of the sudden, this tornado of emotions swept over me out of the blue and I had to rush down the stairs from the main road to throw up in the bushes.

9 years since my first love broke my heart. 9 years since I made a promise to myself to never ever allow myself to feel this way again.

9 years of complete waste.

Sunday Kind of Fool

orsi — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 14:02:02 +0000

Spin Doctors B-Day BBQ

orsi — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 10:50:10 +0000

See you all there today!

Orsii Hearts Groovement

orsi — Thu, 08 Jul 2010 23:25:34 +0000

I made this mix last year for Jamie at Groovement. Mixing wise I still didnt have a clue of what I was doing, but music wise it all came from the heart. Groovement is one of the best websites and radio shows I know. The amount of respect and love I have for Agent J and Groovement can’t even be explained in words. He is just so amazing and inspirational, and so completely genuine and heartfelt and talented and incredible that simple words cant do him justice. He is definitely one of my heroes and one of the main people I look up to. So if you dont check out the mix, at least visit the website, read the articles, listen to the shows, and discover the wonderful world of Groovement.

The hottest girl in town

orsi — Thu, 08 Jul 2010 23:12:21 +0000

You guys are too amazing! Thank you so much for all of you who tuned into this mix and created a hype around it. I know that i cant mix for shit due to my current “mixing status” and it means so much to have your support regardless of that. I have so much love for you all, thank you! xxx

VIDEO: Mystro – Around My Way

orsi — Wed, 07 Jul 2010 10:39:01 +0000

Big up this mutha luva!
Mystro makes me smile Feeling the track as well.

ORSII IS BACK!!!

orsi — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 14:35:22 +0000

ME & MY BLOG ARE FINALLY BACK!
yaaay!

Loop Language by TeV95

orsi — Sat, 03 Jul 2010 18:32:27 +0000

Just got recommended this lovely little beat tape. Im feeling it, has some nice summer vibes to it, prefect for my evening outdoor working. Wish I had a cassette player… However, the digital download is for free, so cop it now!

Janelle Monae

orsi — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 18:39:13 +0000

This young lady is dope! Gutted I am missing her in London!

If I tell you these are mountains, you will imagine them as such

orsi — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 18:22:46 +0000

Massive thank you to @bkcl for this amazing gift! A wonderful and summer sweet mix to cheer me up. I really am spoiled when it comes to fantastic friends! Get it here!