Pityu

It’s been a year since you left us and I still can’t think about you without choking up and getting a heavy heart.

Everything about last year was just so shit and your passing somehow ended up being both the worst thing that happened and the turning point for it all.

I’ve never missed you as much as I have this year…

Orsi es Pityu

I don’t think it’s because you haven’t been here, but because I’ve accomplished so many things that I would’ve loved to share with you. They would have made you so happy and so proud and I’m annoyed with myself for not being able to do them whilst you were still with us

We got the keys to the flat two weeks after you passed and I’m sad you weren’t able to see my (fantastic) handy work with doing it up, as well as the finished result (because let’s be honest, I clearly inherited those skills from you).

Marika, Orsi es Pityu

I put my heart and soul into training for that marathon in Copenhagen and even though you I’m sad that you couldn’t see me cross that finish line in person, I know you were there with me in spirit throughout that entire journey.

I did my very best with that final MA project and I know you never really understood what it was all about, but I know you would have been so proud to see me do so good against all the odds. (The one thing that they can never take away from me is my knowledge – right?)

Orsi, Marika es Pityu

I’m so sad that you never got the chance to go to my graduation and to see me dressed up in the gown and hat. I’m sorry I painted my nails black for the occasion, I know you would’ve hated it but I couldn’t resist the temptation of annoying you just a little bit, even if it was just in spirit.

I’m sad and a bit angry that I took our time together for granted and that I didn’t hug you extra tight that last time I saw you. I’ll never forget walking down those stairs in your building and looking up towards your door as you were waving us goodbye. Mum was crying because she insisted that it might be the last time I see you, and I hate that she was right!

Pityu es Orsi

I’m sad that 2014 turned out to be such a life changing year for me and that you weren’t here to experience it.

And I’m sad that you won’t be here to see and experience so many other things in my life that I would have wanted you to be part of.

Marika es Pityu

I wish I could say that it gets easier with time, but it hurts just as much a year on as it did when we went to the hospital and they told us you had passed.

Not a day goes by without me thinking of you and I hope you know that I love and miss you so so much.

Pityu, Marika, Orsi

Hello my friends,

I know I know, I’ve left it way too long between the updates again but life (and then a super nasty cold) got the best of me and I’ve just been too tired or too ill to do any decent posts.

Quite a lot has happened since I last wrote here and it’s just funny how life throw you curve balls out of nowhere that forces you into one direction when you think you should be going the other.

To start with some slightly sad-ish news, I missed out on some interesting opportunities at the end of September that I was a bit disappointed by (keep telling myself that it just wasn’t meant to be).

But on the flip side of that, I’ve been invited to talk at two seminars at BCU in November which I’m super excited about! One will be with the MA students on the Enterprise module and one with the BA students in Music Industries, I can’t wait!

Oh and I haven’t written about it on the blog yet but I found out at the beginning of the month that I got a London Marathon ballot place!!!! Sadly I won’t be able to accept my place for the 2015 race due to a trip to Thailand BUT I will definitely run it in 2016 which will be extra special as I turn 30 that year and ever since I started running I’ve dreamt of running this marathon before my 30th birthday.

And if that wasn’t enough good news to make up for any slightly bad ones, I also found out that my best friend Cata has been offered a new job in Amsterdam (!!!) and will be moving there very soon!

I tell you, I couldn’t be happier and more proud of her :) Apparently it’s a fantastic career opportunity for her and even though I will miss her like crazy, I really hope I’ll be able to visit her quite a bit in 2015 to discover Amsterdam a bit more and to help her plan the wedding as well.

Plus there’s potentially some other good news to share as well, but they haven’t been confirmed yet so I don’t want to jinx anything before I know for sure ;)

I’ll keep you posted!